Find a Way to Love Me (Extra Credit)

Every day when I wake up
I take a look in the mirror
Then I start to wonder do I really belong here?
All the shit that I go through
I can't take anymore
I wish I were a bird, that could be free, and fly right out the door
If I could belong, the things I'd do
Never worrying about being covered in poo
Wishing I had friends, having my back
No-one here, I'm all alone
Being made fun of, for who I am
They are tearing me apart, I hate them
I just want a chance to prove myself

Right now I feel like an ant in New York
Trying to find my way around but still nowhere to be found
Going to school my heart almost explodes
I'm so nervous and scared
No-one has yet cared, loud is my cry, please realize
If I could belong, the things I'd do
Never worrying about being covered in poo
Wishing I had friends, having my back
No-one here, I'm all alone
Being made fun of, for who I am
They are tearing me apart, I hate them
I just want a chance for me to prove myself

My New Year Resolution

I don't like school
I don't like tests
I hate waking up in the morning
Why can't I just go back to bed?
I don't like driving, especially in the snow
I don't like airplanes, in fact I hate traveling in general
I don't like the cold
I don't like the scorching heat on summer days
Sports can be a hassle, maybe I should quit
I don't like spiders
I don't like poison ivy
I don't like cameras or computers
I don't even really like video games
There are a million more things that I don't like but I can't list them all
It's like I hate everything as if I am a seventy year old man who can only complain
I don't know why but being negative can feel good
However I realize that there are so many positive things in this world that can make me feel better
I realize that I am missing out on the things that make me happy
You only get one life and I know that I should make the best of it
Which is why my new year resolution is to just enjoy life.

The Love Hand

As I grab my brother's soft hand
it reminds me of walking on smooth white sand.
It is as white as the new falling snow that brightens my eyes,
but can also smell like a critter that dies.
However, as we get home it's the smell of the dirt on the baseball field
with cuts and scratches that I hope will soon heal.
It feels like a pillow that makes me sleepy,
but when I close my eyes his hand jumps on my face which is very creepy.
He cracks his fingers sounding like stars collapsing
it's a monster's hand with his fierce grasping.
His hand shows that my brother and I are always together
us loving each other from now and forever.